just got back from a church retreat.. cleared my mind up a lil... but still pissed at myself... i got 20points... where am i suppose to go? yjc? not that i've got anything against them... but i really like ajc. althought its old and run down, with a crappy field and its 'mugger' image. its a cool place to be. but i guess i do deserve my points... wasnt really working hard... slacking most of the time, distracted by things... haha. serves me right. now all i can do is apply, appeal and leave everything to God. i've been given many chances.. just hope that i'm given this one last one... no use brooding over it... just got to wait for the postings...