haha. today was a fruitful day =) caught 2 great movies. stomp the yard and music & lyrics. for those who havent caught stomp the yard, WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR? GO WATCH IT NOW! its a show not to be missed. the sleek moves will knock ur socks off(haha. dunno where that came from, just going with the flow) and the story line is good. couple of lessons learnt from the show, pride comes before a fall and ripping off someone else's moves is stupid cuz u'll get burnt in the end. as for music and lyrics... haha. dun wanna say anything about it. wanna know? ask me but i might not tell. lol. anyway just leave u guys with a song that really hit me. enjoy. ciao.
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Way Back Into Love - OST Music & Lyrics

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it true without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night


I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
And if you help me to start again
You know i'll be there for you in the end

heya. just a quick post to let u wonderful ppl who actually read this know that i'm still alive. haha. anyway, havent been up to much the past few weeks... sats are burned cuz of SYFC but its the price i'll pay if it gives me an edge on getting my wings in the RSAF. so recently caught 2 movies, hannibal rising and mr bean's holiday. hannibal rising to simply put it is basically how hannibal lector became the killer he is today, saddism rating is abt 7-8 out of 10? haha. yes i'm a slightly sadistic person if ur wondering how my brain ticks... now on to a lighter and funnier note, mr bean's holiday, expect ur usual funny antics from the funny man we all grew up laughing at. a lil spoiler mr bean's first word is 'YES!' haha. but the ending was shit.. so i'd recommend it on weekdays and if ur lucky at either GV Vivo or The Cathay's Grand Cathay. wanna watch Stomp The Yard, but cant find anyone to watch it with... had an 'opportunity' to watch it the other day but i missed it... well it more of missed me but who cares abt the technical details? final say is that i missed it. so anyone wanna watch it let me know k? ciao.

damn, its Wednesday already and i havent done anything productive what so ever. sometimes i wish i hadnt withdrawn from yjc, to turn back time but no use whining now. life goes on, time flies by and i've pissed off the person closest to me one too many times within 3days? i gotta start getting my act together. first thing, study for sat's test. haha. after that prep my laptop for life in SP. finally but most importantly, be true to myself and the ppl ard me. haha. thats all i have to do i guess.. sounds easy. ciao.

everything i do just makes things worst... y?

had a wake up call from my form teacher in yjc... turns out that i forgot to withdraw from the place... (called at abt 9ish in the morning... interupted my sleep) so went down to that place for one last time. haha. cousin was having break so made her accompany me while i waited for the VP =P (if ur reading this, STOP trying to intro me to ppl) anyway, forgot to bring some stuff so headed home to get it then went back. i think i skipped my lunch today but no one really cares do they? then went to amk library for some reason. was looking ard for graphic novels but they dont seem to have them, bummer =( so found some book which was suppose to teach u spanish within a couple of weeks? quite interesting. then went home to snooze... got up at ard 6? so decided to go down for a run which turned out horrible... i'm not as fit as i used to be. almost killed myself with the intervals i was working on. lol. note to self, ur getting old, ur body is not what it used to be... which brings me to my last point and the thing which i'm worried about.. there's no change in my mum's condition for the time being, but she has to go through therapy.. its not 100% cure but i hope the cells die off... stupid cancer, its a freaking time bomb... why cant someone just defuse it? the only thing i can do now is pray... ciao..

syfc orientation today... man its super BORING! haha. well, the bunch of ppl in the course are a nice and fun bunch. most of them from the interview, haha damn happy to see my fellow Hasa T-6 biker =) turns out he somehow got excepted in haha. anyway, back to the boring stuff of ground school... learnt what the Piper was made off (yawns), learnt radio commands and the lingo (yawns again) and learnt the airlaws... and to make things worst the guy who was suppose to lecture us always walked out whenever he saw some familar face and left us hanging in the middle of no where.. like wth? and to top it off we got a test next week and the notes aren't exactly easy to understand... oh well, pity most of my course mates cuz they got to go to skool while i can stay at home and study. good luck guys! ciao.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CAILING!!!

muahaha.

how should i start? no thats not it.. where should i start? with the good news or the bad? guess i'll start with the good... i finally got out of YJC. that dead place and into Singapore Poly! althought i got into mechnical engineering instead of aerospace electronics. but its alright, i'm in where i wanna be and thats all that matters. well that was all the good news i have now for the matters which are eating me away...

1. Cancer
why does cancer exsist in the first place? its the mutation of the cells in the human body which causes the organs to fail and what not... after millions of years of evolution, shouldn't the genetics which cause cancer be phased out of the gene pool already? haiz... my mum had gone through one round of cancer in her large intestine. why does she have to go through another round in her lungs? isn't there any cure? please God, she should not have to go through this.

2. 2 + 5 = 7
well, its not bad news or good news but its something which is slowly eating me away... to most its just a math equation. but certain ppl know what i'm talking about. i wont say its fading away, but its not progressing much either... we're caught inbetween the past and the future... stuck in a place neither here nor there. in a place of emptiness where i'm slowly being eaten away, piece by piece... i dont know how much longer i can take it or last... especially now when my mum needs me the most... i really need you to be there to help me through and give me strength when i'm down... if ur reading this, let me say that i'm not pressurising. i just want u to know how much u mean to me and affect me.

okay, before i get anymore emotional and lose control of myself, i'll stop here. ciao.

Cancer - My Chemical Romance
"now turn away... 'cause i'm awful just to see...'

whee! last day of work is over =) finally can relax and do my own stuff. so my agenda for the next week is.... go scouting for a bag, 18/07 bbq at xh's house, pool with gary and the guys, hopefully catch a movie and lastly hope to go out with Nebulo for a final OG outing before the hectic term starts.. thats all for now. cya ard. ciao

just got back from the 3rd day of standing for 11+ hours also know as my job at the suntec IT fair. haha. sometimes i wonder if the $40 a day is really worth the effort? haha. either way life still goes on... which brings me to another point... i guess my life is a real irony in comparison to life itsell? or maybe its just the way i am and how i think with is ironic. well back to moving on, here i am talking about it when in actual fact i just wanna go back to the past, to someone who i really care abt and wanna be with. i'll admit that i do like shumei a lil, but its the platonic feeling. we're a lil close is skool thats all is it that hard to believe that we're not together? i'm still attached to someone in my past. i bet some of you reading(if any) are hoping to know who it is? well ur in luck, that person is ....... there, i told u who it is =P happy decoding. well, thats all i can think of. ciao.

got posted to yjc... its a shitty place... really really hope to get out of there... someone please save me! =(

heya. havent been posting cuz i was feeling kinda lazy and havent got time to come online long enough to blog =P anyway someone started asking y i didnt blog. well, this post is for u k? lets get back to y u ppl are actually reading my blog, to kaypo abt my life and maybe laugh to urself to thinking 'hey, this loser's life is worst than mine' haha. go ahead i'm not stopping you =)

well, the past few days havent been a bitch but is hasnt really been a bed of roses either. cleared up some matters of the heart and mind. but still left utterly confused and not much better than before. like what my buddy terry told me ' dude, u got a second ego' haha. maybe i do... i'm suffering from what? a rare case of schizophrenia? lol. anyway i'm degressing... got myself a job at the up coming it fair, crappy pay but the commision kinda makes up for it.. skipped the last day of skool. haha. i know its stupid but its me ur talking to. well... i think there are a couple more things but i cant remeber them. so before i get too emo and start blogging things i shouldnt... haha. ciao.

haven't been blogging for the past few days... dont wanna be too emo and all... hahaz. my mind's been spinning alot lately... thats all i can say. ciao